An unstable new grad, a cat owner

0-cus-d2-786315551f4a99696f94d2563a785726I have been working in various part-time jobs since I was 14 years old. How come it feels like it’s harder to get hired now that I graduated from a Master’s degree? The whole career and job hunt business is getting mysterious.

I mentioned on my last blog post that I’m currently not working, therefore I get to spend a lot of time at home with my kitty catty Simon. But the anxiety of job searching is catching up to me. At first, I gave myself a time frame of at least 6 months after graduating to slowly…slowly… find full-time work that I like to do. So, the first thing I did after graduating this April was to travel in Asia with my boyfriend.

After coming back from the trip in August, I proceeded to relax at home. Do things that enrich life like : see friends again, pick up a new interest, make things (I am going to share the 30″ cat scratching post I made in my future post!), exercise as a couple, gain weight, make exciting food etc. But the anxiety is catching up to me. Winter is coming, and I cannot enjoy anything.

When I do’t send out another 2 resumes or cover letters every weekday, my anxiety accumulate because I felt that I could not fulfill an invisible quota, which I NEED in order to live my daily carefree and enjoy my time. I am working towards easing the dread of running after the status of a young professional.

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music to listen: Erik Satie: Gymnopedie 1,2,3 Gnossienne 1,2,3,4